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Following are some tidbits about me.
Just stuff bits
- Most of the time, my favorite colors are purple and green....or the rainbow.
- I like salty foods more than sweets. I do not smoke. I seldom drink alcohol.
- I am lazy when it comes to written communication; I prefer the phone or face-to-face.
- I have hand-written twenty journals since 1998 and continue to add to the count. I know Gregg shorthand which I use when I journal with a pen.
- I dabble with poetry and have been published in five(?) different anthologies.
- I love spending time with nature. She has brought me solace and delight and awe and gratitude and lessons and comfort and many-an-answered prayer.
- I ride my bicycle often on Greenways and rail trails. I took up cycling on a regular basis after I was no longer able to long-distance hike. I dare say, cycling saved me life. At least it was a huge factor.
- I abhor paperwork and keeping records and filling out forms and medical charts.
- I don't enjoy shopping.
- I like maps.
- I think our society would be well-served endeavoring to make-do with what is at hand, as long as feasibly possible, before adding more stuff to the planet.
Childhood and teenage bits
- I have lived most of my life in North Carolina, USA.
- I have also lived in Florida, Kansas, Indiana, Ohio, and Wisconsin.
- I have two siblings; I am the youngest.
- I grew up with horses from around age 4 through age 12.
- As I youngster, I dreamed of being a dancer, or a teacher, or a nurse, or a nun, and other ors.
- I took ballet lessons for three (?) years.
- As a child and teen I played the recorder, the violin, the piano, the guitar, and the kazoo. I only got proficient with the kazoo.
- While growing up, I often star gazed; I wanted to see a UFO and meet aliens.
- Between the ages of 17 and into my early 20s, I hitchhiked over 5000 miles around the USA. Most of those miles were logged while I was in The Way Corps.
- One of my big dreams since high school has been to thru-hike the 2180-mile Appalachian Trail, from Georgia to Maine. As of 2012, that dream was indefinitely suspended due to health issues.
- For more on my teen years, see "Seeking the spiritual bits" below.
- I have been married to my husband since 1984. We have two wonderful children who are now young adults.
- We home-eclectic schooled our children from birth until college. We went on many hiking and mountain trips. We still do when we can.
- As of 2017, there are not yet grandchildren. We do have a grand-dog.
- I and my husband helped care for my father for over eleven years after Dad survived a head-on collision which left him to live his remaining twelve-plus years as a quadriplegic.
- As of 2009, both my parents and all their siblings are deceased.
Jobs and career bits
- I am a 'generalist;' my interests vary, sometimes widely. My chosen "career" was a stay-at-home mom.
- I held my first real job when I was 14 years old; I worked as a hospital dietitian aid.
- My other jobs include or have included nurse's aid in a nursing home, hospital laundry worker, taxi-cab driver, neighborhood ice cream carter, waitress, food services, various secretarial jobs, various sales positions, potter's assistant, childcare, science center educational presenter and on-site camp-in director, preschool music teacher, miniature-art studio manager, and professional pet care.
- In 2011 I established a pet sitting business. As of 2014, I spend more time face-to-face with animals than with people.
Seeking the spiritual bits
- From age 15 into age 16, I experimented heavily with psychedelic drugs...including Jimson weed, datura stramonium.
- I was involved with Transcendental Mediation for over a year beginning while I was age 16. I took the Science of Creative Intelligence class. I hung Maharishi TM poster advertisements at high school and volunteered at the local TM Center helping with initiations.
- After TM I became involved, at different times, with a Free Will(?) Baptist Church, the Aquarian Gospel of Jesus the Christ, Ram Daas, and the Charismatic movement.
- Upon graduating high school, I was interested in either the Peace Corps or VISTA. But that summer I ended up in the Charismatic movement and then attended college with the aim of becoming a Christian counselor. While in my first semester of college, I hooked up with The Way International and dropped out of college after one semester to study and serve with The Way.
- I spent 28 years, from ages 18 through 46 (1977-2005), as a loyal follower of The Way International running lay fellowships for over fifteen of those years. I believed the Bible "as originally given" was the inerrant Word of God and that The Way was the "true household of God." I served as a WOW Ambassador for approximately fourteen months. I was a member of The Way Corps for over four years (including two Apprenticeship years) but never graduated.
- Since leaving The Way in 2005, I have slowly left my biblical belief system and gravitated toward agnosticism.
- Click here to read details of my journey, especially regarding my years in The Way.
Chronic illness bits
- At age 22, during my fourth year of involvement with The Way, my health took a dive and I developed (what turned into) over two decades of chronic illness. From 1981 through 2005, I suffered through (among other ailments) asthma, allergic rhinitis, hives, multiple bouts of pneumonia, multiple allergies and an over-responsive immune system, mercury toxicity, hormone dysfunction, depression and anxiety, a herniated disc, multiple hospitalizations, and four sinus surgeries (polypectomies).
- In 1999, at the age of 40, my health took a different direction and over the subsequent four years I was able to recover from the allergies, asthma, and other extreme autoimmune responses that my body had developed during the past decades. I enjoyed a few years of freedom.
- In August, 2008, I had lateral hip replacement surgery due to bone loss, a side effect of over two decades of regular steroid use to keep me breathing.
- For a couple years after hip replacement surgery in 2008, I was able to take up my teenage dream of backpacking.
- In May, 2011, I developed debilitating symptoms simultaneously in all my limbs and extremities while taking a medication (oral terbinafine) for toenail fungus for six weeks. My first diagnosis was idiopathic edema. That was changed in July, 2011, to a 'serum sickness like response to oral terbinafine.' I was prescribed low-dose prednisone (which I have continued). In February, 2013, I had carpal tunnel surgery.
- In June, 2013, as my symptoms continued to spread and worsen, my diagnosis was changed again to polyradiculitis, which means multiple nerve roots are swollen at the spinal cord. For me that includes roots at my lumbar and neck regions. Symptoms have spread to all my limbs and extremities, my back, my neck, and my jaws. Along with daily low dose prednisone, I receive steroid lumber epidurals every twelve weeks and steroid cervical neck shots every six. Polyradiculitis is a rare type of peripheral neuropathy typically associated with chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy (CIDP) and Guillain-Barre syndrome (GBS). To read some snippets regarding my continuing struggle with polyradiculitis, click here.
- In June, 2016, we discovered that my recalled hip implant from 2008 had slowly been leaching cobalt and chromium into my body. Among other things, heavy metals can sometimes be a factor in nerve damage. On August 30, 2016, I had revision lateral hip replacement surgery replacing the 2008 defective, recalled implant. It typically takes one to two years after removal of a leaching implant for metal levels to come down. We'll then have a better idea as to how much of a role the metals might play in the nerve damage.
- As of 2017, my biggest life challenge is living with nerve damage and its ramifications. Most of my time and energy go into self care.
- Click here to read my health story: Healing the Soul, Healing the Body
(Last updated July, 2017)
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One of my life-theme songs is Tapestry by Carole King.
I especially like this compilation on Youtube...
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If any readers are so inclined, I'd love to read any tidbits about you. You can share them in the comments section below this blog entry.
Thank you for visiting toss & ripple!
20 comments:
Wow Carol! What a remarkable list of trials, tribulations, and triumphs that have shaped you into who you have become.. You left out something I've perceived these last couple of years we have exchanged stories via the web.
You are a wonderful caring, sharing, and mentally strong woman who has conquered the pitfalls life threw at you and will continue to do so, I have no doubt. I didn't realize you had been connected to The Way for 28 years. Small wonder it has taken you so long to break those invisible chains they bound you with...but kudos to you! You have!
You have read my life story so I won't elaborate on it...just that I am very happy we had a chance to connect in this unpredictable universe.
Awww...thanks Anna for the kind words. <3
I too am grateful that our paths crossed. You are an inspiration to me and others who read your memoir and your blog. Talk about overcoming trials and obtaining triumphs! Not to mention your wisdom shared.
This "..About Me, II" came out somewhat differently than I might have expected. I sat down to write an updated version...and the list appeared. Initially the list was a shorter version than what I ended up posting.
If you ever are inclined to make a "tidbit" list and so inclined to share it or a link to it here...that'd be great. Maybe I could start a tidbit train. Haha.
Much gratitude Anna!
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I enjoyed reading more about you Carol. I took Gregg shorthand in high school, the last year they offered it. How cool it would be if I could remember any of it. I'm also more of a salty gal, too:)
That's a lot of *about me* stuff. :-)
Thanks Carol, but I assume you realize I find it hard to condense anything and my "tidbits" would likely turn into a full 99 course banquet of near miss's. :)
*chuckle* Anna...yes, I hear that!
I keep thinking of things to tweak in this list. Not sure what the final outcome will be. Of course, the list continually grows!
Thanks Alice...
Cool that you took Gregg shorthand too.
My mother-in-law is a retired high school business teacher. Among other things, she taught Gregg shorthand. Hope she doesn't get hold of my journals! ;-D
To salt!
It might be too much?
As my manner is, I have been self-conscious about this blog entry...the old "all about me" crap. But, that is what the post is about. lol
Hope you are doing okay. I've had a rough couple weeks...especially the last few days. I see the neurologist Monday.
Too much? Depends on what you want out there. Remember I wrote a post about my ills and someone said they had no idea I had all that going on and you commented and said you could relate and I then said something like 'Just think if I'd wrote all my issues.' LOL! I have visions of there being a whole lot more to your *About me* list but one just can't list them all . . . can they? *giggle*
Sorry about the "rough" . . . I've been rough. Way to rough. As you know I love to swim and thus far I can't do it yet this year. Hope to get in the pool today to help this achy joints. (((hugs))) hope the appointment goes well for you.
*chuckle* ... so true. Before your recent comment, I adjusted some of my entry...including "among other aliments."
Sorry about your "rough" also. We can hope for each other to get back to the water. I've had to give up my biking and water exercise during this most recent bout. :-( They really aren't "bouts," but bad resurgences when the spinal steroids wear off. Not good, not good...
Doctor visit went okay...had to get more spinal injections and raise my daily dose of prednisone. I'm looking into other options currently. I don't want to have to spend the rest of my life on prednisone. I've been thinking again in worst case scenarios...thinking about a wheelchair and what we'd have to do to revamp the home. Gawd...I hope, hope, hope it doesn't come to that.
Doc and I briefly discussed disability...if we can't find a solution that keeps me working.
Hugs backatcha... xoxo
Sometimes when I read it takes my breath away. It isn't easy adjusting to the changes that declining health can bring. :-(
Wanted you to know I've opened up my Old Lady Jeans blog again. If you need the link I can email you.
Well geez...I just typed a response and it went down the black hole somewhere I reckon.
I do get scared sometimes...and my own breath is momentarily taken. I was able to ride my bike yesterday...not far...but enough. And at those times I have hope...my hope is that I can still be riding 8 weeks from now...without further means of temporary intervention.
Yes, please send the link again! I lost it somewhere in the shuffle.
Have you seen the trailer for the film being made from "Wild."
http://bookriot.com/2014/07/10/first-trailer-cheryl-strayeds-wild/
I just saw that the movie was being made! I'm slowly getting through the book, and I do mean slowly, like her hiking. LOL! She's at the part where she's talking about going #2. *grin*
When stuff goes down the black hole I think to myself, like I have all the time in the world for stuff to just disappear. grrr
I'll attempt to link to it via this comment. Hope it works. If not I'll email you.
It worked. Just click on my name. It's not private but I also turned off the search engine thingy. Helps with spam.
Got the link! Thanks Zoe!
Re Cheryl going #2 in the woods...I was intrigued when I met a female backpacker who used a funnel to pee while standing so she wouldn't have to unload her pack. If I ever get to backpack again...I doubt I'll ever use a funnel. *chuckle*
Geeez, this whole idea of telling so much about yourself amazes me. Now I know you're no way going to get out the cyber whip and lash me for not being more into your blog in recent times. Whether I'm missing a lot or not, it has to be voluntary. In fact your telling so much personal stuff has to be voluntary. Well, most of the time. I recall a couple of things I read here that sounded like you were writing about some rather personal things because someone else had been writing/posting stuff about you and you may have been "clearing the record". I think there was some GS related stuff you told about that had that theme. I know of a couple of well known people who have written a lot about their very personal lives, and I know it's at least partly because others write so much about them that they have little choice but to give it straight. I think for the most part, though , it's your choice. I have to ghet back to checking more of this out...even now, I think I'll end this because I see a topic to the right I want to check out.
Hey Billy!
Thanks for visiting and for the comment.
I've often asked myself why I blog and why have I shared what I have and still share what I share. My answers have varied...and I've yet to fully grasp why I blog. It still seems odd to me.
Like other folks, shortly after leaving TWI, something inside me felt the need to holler from the roof tops. At first, I entered the GSC and other online forums, and later blogging represented for me a roof top. Much stifling silence came from decades of "declaring the old man dead" which resulted in a type of soul suicide. (I know others have experienced the same.)
I also felt that maybe some of what I share might help someone else...but that is not the main reason I chose to blog.
I have not come forward with my whole GSC story and don't know if I ever will. There are parts that played deeply into the GSC saga that I don't feel at liberty to share. Maybe someday it will come out; and if so, I will probably use pseudonyms. But at this point, I don't have a desire to put energy into sharing it. I initially started to write that GSC story (at least parts of it) on another blog, but took it off public view after my harmful experiences with Knapp, my ex-cult-recovery therapist. Knapp was a key factor in me coming forward with my story and publicly sharing. So...part of that has left a bad taste in my mouth.
So the majority of what I've publicly shared has not been to confront what others may have posted or stated about me. But some stuff has been...especially in regard to Knapp.
After Knapp publicly posted outrageous and damning lies about myself and others, I addressed many of his lies specifically to set the record straight and so that his behavior could be exposed. Not that anyone would be that interested...except folks who may have encountered (or are encountering) his Mr. Hyde side. After my experiences with him, I learned that he has a pattern dating back to at least the mid-90s of twisting facts and truths and of outright lying in order to advance his hidden agendas. If he would ever own his misdeeds and be accountable to those he has harmed...I might take from public view the exposure I have posted in regard to him. At this point, I don't expect him to ever own up.
I seem to currently be taking a sabbatical from blogging. I wonder how long it will last. ;)
Thanks again Billy!
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I stated: I have not come forward with my whole GSC story and don't know if I ever will."
To clarify...I have come forward with very little of my GSC saga. It was a complex web of relationships in 2-D and 3-D life. It would make a steamy and intriguing novel or movie...parts of it are quite comical, as far as looking back on some of it.
Hi Carol,
Wow, your name sure is familiar! Probably from the time I spent in the Way Corp between 1983-86. I was 'in residence' when V.P. died.
Just found your blogs today. Enjoyed what I have read and am learning. Very sad news I also discovered today about another member of the 14th Corps that is in much trouble. Whew...life is a whopper of a roller coaster.
All the above being said. I say: PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP! I believe that world is on the verge of going thru major changes. There is good and evil in the world. I believe that you want to be a force for good in the world. I'd love to chat with you more.
Sincerely Brian Swanson. B.C., Canada (email:b9167530357@yahoo.com)
Hi Brian,
Nice to meet your cyber-acquaintance.
Thanks for stopping by and for reading and for commenting and for the kudos.
Yes, we may have worked together or met at some point. I was out of the Corps beginning in October, 1983, when I left HQ. Still, we may have crossed paths there or elsewhere through the years.
I take it you are no longer with The Way?
I figure your statement regarding the 14th Corps person is about River Road Fellowship and Victor Barnard? Very sad news, yes. :-(
The world sure is dynamic...ever changing yet the good and evil always seems to repeat themselves adapting to the current age. Thanks for the encouragement.
I'll shoot you an email shortly with 'toss and ripple' in the subject line. :-)
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